que sera sera

My mother used to sing this song to me when I was a child, aside of course from her favorite "close to you" by the Carpenters. Que sera sera. Whatever will be, will be.

My mom's really afraid that I'll take photography seriously. Too late. :) I am taking up photography, but not as serious as she thinks I will. She used to encourage us towards more cerebral activities. I remember being shuffled from one activity to another. Speech. Piano. Tennis. Computer. Even swimming. I took to those as a child who liked to play. Why am I ranting about this now? Well it's because I am both into the newbie state. Newbie doctor. Newbie photography enthusiast.

I am ranting about this now. because I am going through the state where I guess 1st generation doctors go through. Lost. But I'm not lost, I just want the simple nod of acceptance of my chosen specialty. I just want the silence of not listening to whatever opening there is in the states, what specialty people think is best, to where I should get my specialty training, to what country I should go etc etc. It's simple, acceptance, yet complicated more ways than one blog can cover.

I took up photography because it keeps me sane. Just like how tennis used to take away my angst. Oh well, just what they used to sing, que sera sera, whatever will be, will be.